We were 5 minutes into the trip when Alan said
" Ko tau tak Michael Jackson meninggal pagi tadi...pukul 5.. " I was shocked and flabbergasted to know the news. At first I didn't believe it...
" Serious? "
" Ye...kul 5 pagi tadi... "
" 5 waktu US ke Malaysia? "
" US...kalo ko x caye, ni, semua radio pasang lagu Michael Jackson.. " He turned up the radio, and Michael Jackson songs were almost on all the radio stations.
I was shocked...the very core of my soul were rocked due to the fact that...another entertainer, if not the greatest of all time, which had brought joy and wonder to millions of people worldwide with his songs and music videos, will never ever grace the entertainment scene any longer.
He's MJ, you're Aiman....you don't have anything to connect with him, he doesn't even know your existence, why are you making such a big fuss out of this you asked? Yes, you're right...he's famous, he's THE Michael Jackson and I'm just some dude from Malaysia who he doesn't even know exists...but his death brought sadness in my heart due to the fact that his songs...connected to me in many different ways that managed to brought many different feelings into life for the past 15 years of my life.
But still, you're just another fan, like millions worldwide...MEDIOCRE. So don't think that you're special in any way possible you say? Haha...well, if you only know two of his songs, which I can tell is Beat It and Smooth Criminal, then I'll say you're in no position to say anything.... Besides, this is a tribute, so don't mess it up only because your ass is too big for your mouth to swallow.
I still remember my first ever Michael Jackson song, the Earth Song. I was chilling watching NTV 7 early in the morning with music videos that they aired. I was 9 at that particular time and the music video, with all things going backwards. Destroyed buildings, fallen tress, dead animals, African natives, and even a dead person coming back into life...that music video and song just stuck in my head, stuck in my heart till now and that was the catalyst for me to learn more about MJ and his songs, thus becoming a huge fan of his.
I still remember going back to Kluang with my family, them road trips where I would tell my mom to bring out MJ's Thriller album where we, at least me, would listen to songs like Beat It, Billie Jean, and Thriller all through the 2 hour trip over and over and over again...kesian diorang...haha. I can still remember me playing air guitar, along with Eddie Van Halen when his guitar solo part comes in Beat It... I can still remember trying to eat my sister and act like a zombie when listening to Thriller...haha. I can still remember of trying to dance like Micheal when listening to Billie Jean. I was around 10 or 11 so I didn't know much about the lyrics and its' meanings..I was only enjoying the sound produced by the great entertainer.
I listened to Bad and Smooth Criminal when I felt sexy, good and mischievous...haha. I listened to Man in the Mirror when I was feeling about doing some soul searching. Catchy love songs like It's The Falling in Love, Pretty Young Thing, Baby Be Mine, I Just Can't Stop Loving You, and The Way You Make Me Feel are what I listened to when I was pumped full with testosterone and crazy about girls...haha.
Give In To Me, is the song I listened to when I was determined to own something..haha. Dirty Diana, the song I listened to when my heart was broken many times and when girls disappointed me...I sang along with Michael, only changing the Diana part with the names of the girls that I was frustrated with...somehow, it's cool yet pathetic...haha.
I listened and sang along with MJ's You Are Not Alone when I was feeling sad and lonely. I listened to You Rock My World when I was dreaming about impressing girls...haha. And lastly, I sang Black or White when I was chilling with my African friends at Lagenda...haha.
You see fellas, whether Michael is a bad or good guy, with his whole child molestation thingy, one thing is for sure, because when it comes to entertaining people with songs and powerful lyrics, throw away all the negative talks because he is trully, The King of Pop.
Micheal, whether you're looking on up or down on me, I just want you to know that it had been a privilege for me to listen to your songs. You managed to influence my life through your songs and even my mom could rarely managed to do that..and she's my mom!!! haha.
I will miss you dearly... Your songs, your dance moves, your music videos will forever be in my heart if God let me to. And I will try my best to bring the joy and wonders that you'd managed to bring to me through your songs to my friends and families so that they too can appreciate your works. See you again Micheal, hopefully, in the Afterlife. And may you rest in peace....