Words.

People tend to say a particular thing which will then come with different interpretations when asked for justification or reasoning to compliment the moment of asking and their feelings with minimum fuss.

And don't worry this is not a post to bash a particular people or anything. It's just an accumulation of feelings regarding events that happened since my last entry.

2 years is a long time don't you think? It's funny how, correct me if I'm wrong, you were trying to just erase or force yourself to blank-out those feelings and memories like it didn't matter. Like you're trying to start fresh and new and treat what had happened as a mistake. Sincerely I do hope it's a lot more complicated than that.

Words.

Everything that I heard, it came from a sincere intend to amend things. From how you put it, trying to start new. I listened attentively, as always, because I thought that's what people are supposed to do when someone's talking to them. Judgemental? I'll admit that it's my fault and I'm sorry. But it's my second nature and my main aim was always to have your best interest at heart. Like a good, caring special friend should.

Early.

Too early. Not ready. Focus on yourself. At least that's what you told me. And even though I'm 30% against it, my other 70% said that I have no business whatsoever and I should support you, like a good, caring special friend should.

Comparison.

To be frank I'm sad. Disappointed. At least compare between apples. Not between apples and oranges. That hurt me much. As if mine's didn't matter and it was nothing. If you put it that way, how are mines supposed to matter to start with? Level out the playing field. Make it fair for me. Please? Like a good, caring  special friend should?

Hate.

Let this be clear. My sadness and disappointment never manifested into hatred. You too know that I'm not that type of guy. Besides, your best interest at heart were always my main motivation for my actions. There were problems at the start but after realisation, memories and goodwill are far greater motivations for me to do it one last time for you, like a good, caring special friend should.

Easy.

I do hope that things are getting easier for you than it is for me. Because by then I'll know that you're doing fine and judging on what had happened, it indeed seems like it is easier for you. I'm genuinely happy. A little bit of sadness but overall I'm happy if its true, like a good, caring special friend should.

Privileges.

What do you mean not granted much privileges? 

Things I learn after throwing a party...

There were some ups and downs, highs and lows, goods and bads of throwing a party. After throwing a bbq party last night, I think it should be shared for everyone's pleasure.

1. Meat should be sliced very, very, very thinly.

2. Meat and chicken should be left marinated overnight, not just 3 hours....damn.

3. Never, ever feel ashamed or afraid to ask for help from friends...thanks hakim, adlan...MVP dowh korang...

4. Malaysians tend to be late for at least 15 minutes, remember that Aiman.

5. Be ready for some unexpected company...damn little children...lol.

6. They were some unsporting people...suh ikut theme pun susah. Tak de baju konon...porraahhh!!! haha...

7. Them sporting people, you guys are sure to be on my list for any party I'll be throwing next time.

8. Girls are so insecure and cruel. Last minute cancelation la....no friends coming along la...tak de baju so can't come la...takut nanti tak de gang la... The point of going to a party, IS TO MEET NEW PEOPLE AND HAVE FUN!!!! celaka...

9.Place to get food and place to chill should be placed not too far of a distance.

10. Have enough food; prepare for more than what you'd prepared...lol

11. Need to have something serious to dare with kalo maen game...JILAT!!! JILAT!!! haha...

12. People should say goodbye to the host when leaving the party...tak yah la tibe2 menghilang terus...

13. Girls don't trust me...celaka...

14. My social circle consist of mainly boys...celaka...

15. Pretty much of the lads are cool, sporting ones...great to invite to a party.

16. I never knew that people don't have at least one pair of rock oriented clothes at their house.



Last but not least...

17. Tight-ass jeans will at first kill and suffocate your balls, but, lame2, it feels kinda comfortable...lol


So, ladies and gentlemen, there you have it. With that, I'd finished my first ever 30th blog entry in my entire life. Hope you guys enjoy it....cheers.

Don't blame me, blame my gender.

Heads up, before this thing starts, yeah, this post, will indeed have something to do with my gender; being a male, having testosterone, doing manly stuffs, FANTASISING and other things that are within the realms of your imagination.

Note the bolded word, yeah, gonna talk about that now. Before reading this, don't be a bloody killjoy, don't close your mind, break away from your stereotype-mold of a person, and lastly, DON'T TRY TO BE ALL NAIVE.



Every time I see a pretty lady walking past me by the street, I WILL MAKE HER KNOW THAT I'M CHECKING HER OUT; with my eyes slightly arched downwards, with my mouth closed, with my eyeballs slowly and surely following the direction of her movement, and when she walked passed me, I turn around to check-out her rear view, and also to see whether she turns back to make sure that I was checking her out. All of these are done under the main condition that she was walking alone, with no male counterparts walking besides her that society deems as her mate or partner...so that there won't be any misunderstandings, hurt feelings, or bodily harm...haha.

There were lots of different reactions that were pretty amusing and at the same time, awesome.

There were women that looked back at me, with their eyes arched upwards, smilling, making a cute face, and their heads slightly tilted to the left or right, as if asking me the question: "What do you think?"

There were women that looked back and after realising me looking at them, quickly turned their heads back around as if saying: "Stop it...you're making me blush.."

There were women, of course, that gave no reactions at all...arrogant bastards...

There were women, don't act surprised, that walked back towards me and asked directly: "Were you checking me out?"

There were women, again, don't act surprised, that walked back towards me and shouted at me: "Pervert!!!"

I could go on and on about them different reactions but decides to stop now for the good of mankind...haha.




Everytime I see a nice pic, either beautiful, cute, sexy, classy or any other superlatives that you could find to describe a woman in a good manner, in Myspace or Facebook accounts of the opposite sex that are my acquaintances or not, I would of course share it with my fellow peeps and comment about it.

"Nape la dia ni cun sangat.."

"Aaaarrrrggggghhhhh!!!!"

"Bapak cun la sial!!!"

"Holy SHIT!!!"

"Curves dia...maut bhai..."

"Tak leh lagi putih ke muke dia ni.."

"Mata japanese anime wey..."

"Mesti best kan balak dia..."

"Aku rase mak dia ni pun mesti cun gak..."

The conversations stated above are some of the many examples of the things that use to come up when I share nice pics of women with the lads that.....appreciate the beauty of women the same way as I do and the fact that they are showing it for us to look, yeah, ni kira cam favourite past-time hobby kitorang gak la...haha. Oh, and the pics weren't restricted from social networking sites only, female artists yang cun2 pun kitorang layan gak...




Everytime I meet a friend or any new acquaintances, that are of course of the opposite sex, I would thoroughly "scan" her to see which part of her body that she is showing off and screaming to the public, especially men: "Do not touch the merchandise boys..."

When she is trying to push out her facial features by enhancing them details that make them stand out, like great hair, red-blood lipsticks, thick black mascara, or anything elses that make men notice her face, yeah, I will notice it alright. When she thinks that I'm not looking, yeah, I will in fact make my imagination work overtime. I will imagine her with different types of hair, different length, different styles and different colour. I will imagine how she would look like without her makeup, with different colour of foundation, blusher, and different colour of lipsticks. I will imagine her with glasses or with contact lenses.

If she's wearing them tight-ass jeans, yeah, you guessed it alright, I would focus on her arse when she turns around so that I would get a clearer picture of the shape and proportions. And the same thing goes if she was pushing the two elements up north. I would curi2 check her breasts out, just to get an idea of the shape and size. To determine whether it was appropriate with her body frame or not. A short-framed woman with a big ass, yeah, if could sometimes both be a blessing and a curse....depends on the situation of course. But I just couldn't find a fault when it comes to women with plenty of mammary glands to go around with. Again, don't blame me, blame my gender.




My point being, I told some of my female friends of mine that are pretty close to me about this habit of mine, many of them gave mixed reactions...both almost all agreed that I should keep it to myself. But, knowing that I'm just too curious to know on how people would react if they knew this, I must admit that it's just too hard to keep it in...haha.

Some might argue that I'm a pervert, but seriously, dah diorang nak tunjuk, dah diorang nak people firstly recognise them by the physical characteristics that they want people to firstly recognise them with, I think it's pretty unfair to give me that passive-aggressive treatment if I don't even had a chance to start with don't you think?

Oh, and don't think that I'm the only weirdo that's with this "disease". If you women wanna show it so badly, we men will in fact receive it, helly yeah, enjoy it with open arms. Don't be pissed off because frankly speaking, we men are secretly admiring you and are indeed attracted and is giving full attention towards the "attributes" that you women are showing off and wanting us to give attention to in the first place. And think this as favor from me to you women that are reading this because basically, I am telling you ladies the things that are sometimes in the minds of men everywhere.

Damn it...I would probably have more male enemies after this for revealing our deepest darkest "secret" to you guys of the female species... Oh, and any House fans out there, regarding the title of this entry, could you guys tell me which episode it came from? haha...

So, ladies and gentlemen, there you have it. With that, I'd finished my first ever 29th blog entry in my entire life. Hope you guys enjoy it....cheers.